Post by Hiko on Jan 20, 2018 11:09:18 GMT -5
Deja vu.
Again.
The last time Mollin had taken this path, made this trek toward A'zael's weyr, it had been the start of the worst time of her life. Now, as she made her way to the entrance, it was the worst of his.
She couldn't not give her condolences. Visiting Orana had been as much a part of his day-to-day burden as visiting her had been. And, while Mollin had been so wrapped up in her own misery, Orana could have used a friend. The blue rider felt a pang of both pity for the dead and self-loathing for herself.
She should have been more receptive to A'zael's attempts. She should have given him some sort of slack for what he'd been going through. But all she had felt at the time was anger for feeling used, sorrow in lost chances with Daltilith, and a deep depression that even now was still hard to shake.
But she hated the idea of not saying anything.
Coming up to the man's weyr, she wrapped her knuckles against the entrance. She'd brought flowers; she'd picked them that morning, by the lakeside. Tall, reedy things with delicate white petals, they weren't the prettiest, but she thought he could lay them on Orana's grave the next time he and his daughter visited.
She realized that that was likely why his suffering bothered her so; she felt, of course, for his mourning, but it was Azora that was on her mind the most. How would Zaelin respond in the same situation, at the same age? Orana was obviously much more in her daughter's life than Mollin, and fostering from a young age would of course take out much of the sting of parental demise, but knowing the girl was suffering hurt, and there was little Mollin could do about it. If she'd seen Orana little, she'd seen Azora less. What were words of comfort from a stranger?
Which left A'zael. Whether he wanted to see her, or whether she felt prepared enough to talk at length with him, she couldn't ignore the situation. Drawing up her courage, Mollin called out.
“A'zael? If this is a bad time – I just,” she faltered, “I don't know. I felt awful and I brought flowers?”
Zen
Again.
The last time Mollin had taken this path, made this trek toward A'zael's weyr, it had been the start of the worst time of her life. Now, as she made her way to the entrance, it was the worst of his.
She couldn't not give her condolences. Visiting Orana had been as much a part of his day-to-day burden as visiting her had been. And, while Mollin had been so wrapped up in her own misery, Orana could have used a friend. The blue rider felt a pang of both pity for the dead and self-loathing for herself.
She should have been more receptive to A'zael's attempts. She should have given him some sort of slack for what he'd been going through. But all she had felt at the time was anger for feeling used, sorrow in lost chances with Daltilith, and a deep depression that even now was still hard to shake.
But she hated the idea of not saying anything.
Coming up to the man's weyr, she wrapped her knuckles against the entrance. She'd brought flowers; she'd picked them that morning, by the lakeside. Tall, reedy things with delicate white petals, they weren't the prettiest, but she thought he could lay them on Orana's grave the next time he and his daughter visited.
She realized that that was likely why his suffering bothered her so; she felt, of course, for his mourning, but it was Azora that was on her mind the most. How would Zaelin respond in the same situation, at the same age? Orana was obviously much more in her daughter's life than Mollin, and fostering from a young age would of course take out much of the sting of parental demise, but knowing the girl was suffering hurt, and there was little Mollin could do about it. If she'd seen Orana little, she'd seen Azora less. What were words of comfort from a stranger?
Which left A'zael. Whether he wanted to see her, or whether she felt prepared enough to talk at length with him, she couldn't ignore the situation. Drawing up her courage, Mollin called out.
“A'zael? If this is a bad time – I just,” she faltered, “I don't know. I felt awful and I brought flowers?”
Zen